January 2010
21 posts
are u ashame of yourself ? of the music you carry in your ipod, the texts you carry on your phone, your ringtone, your clothes, hair, face ! what wouldnt vanity be whithout ppl beeing ashame and changing their whole selves ?
i can tell beeing ashame of anything you are is really bad, but at the same time is really good. Its good because you start knowing the point you have to hide/...
why do we feel stronger (and thats definitally the word for it) when we go out of a big problem, specially a relationship one ? i mean, if that was not so, there wouldn’t be this huge success of breakup songs, of romances books and whatever. Humankind likes to suffer (already posted that) , but i think humans like most going out of it. I’m OK to tell this because i just went...
it has been long since my last post here. well its true that i kinda used tumblr as a psychologist (as its perfect because psychologists never talk much and always make you think of the things you are telling them, and thats why i dont like going to this sorta sh*t). well, after i told tumblr all my fears of life (the constant) and the other ones that trouble brought me, i kinda of started to be...
your own
lady gaga, video games, theme parks, and movies such as AVATAR and THE ISLAND. if somebody comes up to me and say these things, i would normally think she or he is crazy..
thinking a little, i realized that for some reason, i was fascinated in what they were. in their creation, all of them can make a thing that humans dream, but cant really do in their on lives : creating a whole new reality...
x say: you do what i want, i wont
when you are in school you follow rules.. i mean, everywhere you r following rules, even if some of them may seem awkward. when you have something, and it can be from a restaurant to a relationship, you build rules around it, that basically make you feel like having lot more control of the situation, not necessarily of the thing.
the weird thing about laws/rules, is that people that are beyond...
GOSSSSSSIP
ok, suffer is a thing that we all may go through in life, in all situations, wich is basically not a choice. But theres one thing that i realized EVERY SINGLE HUMAN goes through, and its totally a choice, its good, its confortable, and its freaking inevitable : GOSSSSSSIP (and its variations) !
i mean, what does make the word go round more than people talking about other people ?...
beware that i dont like taking my tumblr this personal (basically i’m trying to talk to ppl i dont know who they are just as i would do with a psychologist), so if you dont wanna feel like knowing my pain, just jump this post and read my reflections, not my inside.
its not every day that you wake up feeling like you couldn’t ask for anything else.. while i was jogging yesterday, i...
what makes proud of your own creation ? a random creation from your imagination is what they call a monster.
the monster is you, as long as the creature is
as long as your monster exists, you are your monster,you are a monster
suffer (reading this text, for ex)
is suffering a need from human beings ? i mean, besides not-human-contact life, social life is mostly based in suffering. when you are friends with somebody its course harder to suffer, as if you have loyal friends there isn’t going to be a big reason. When relationships starts to be closer, like family, or romances, things start to get really rough. not that i am in a situation that...
“U R AFRAID, assume.”
December 2009
28 posts
but when i tell u this i feel like i’m going to disapoint you in a way that i’v never done before. and one of the things that for a long lead my life was if i was or wasnt disapointing you in all the situations. if i had a problem, i wasnt sad because i was going through it, but because you werent a hundred percent proud of your son.
now, i do feel like i’m disapointing you, and...
appointments, full schedules, alarm clocks, memos. two hours ago i was laying in bed here in my farm, and started to think how these words entered my life so fast, so furious and so roughly, in a way that i canot imagine myself living how i used to live here, for five freakin long years.
but, why do we get so damn much into appointments , good use of the time, etc ? it was just after i...
prometo nao fazer mais posts de 2009 e sobre o que eu espero de 2010, o ultimo foi minha maior inspiração hahaha. agora serei menos contraditório.
xoxoxoxoxota.
When 2009 started my grandmom told me it was going to be ROUGH , because in the chinese calendar it was the mouse or what so ever year,and so it was meant to be filled with troubles. Besides my WHAT THE FUCK AND SHUT UP moment, it really had its sense.
2009 was filled with bad things: school made me study like a freak and loose my social life for a period (2 years, but this year a lot more), i...
in 2010 : i’ll be happier than ever, i’ll do things i have been waiting for so long to do, i’ll keep this awesome ray of my new life that began this year, i’ll make new friends, i’ll be more independent, i’ll travel more, laugh more, love more, understand more, make myself up even more, buy more, give more, live a LOT more. 2010 will be the #1 of my life,...
“its not because i complain that i’m not loving it… complaining is a...”
disgusted
repulsive, disgusting… these are words that mixed up can express a tiny bit the way i feel for some things in my life that i went through in life.
i spent 5 freakin years of my life leaving in the country side.. it was good for me and for everybody who lived with me, but now, after two years of living outta here, i cant stand this for one single day.
maybe thats because i’m awkward.....
“QUEM é você ? cadê o MEU bode ?”
“Only value the opinions of the ones you respect”
– Gaga (via ladyfuckingaga)
“the best type of people you can relate are the ones that doesnt fit into tiny...”
beyoncé on tv, beyoncé tickets on my desk. also on my desk, my wishes for 2009 to be over.. weirdo, i never want to get old or get rid of things like a whole year. but this years has saturated itself, a month ago. enough of big things, calm down now 2009 and please let 2010 appear… my soul and humor cant stand you anymore.. i hope that until beyoncé concert, the one that the tickets are on...
2009
a year started.. smt felt like it was going to be loaded with new things.. you know, being a senior doesnt happen everyday.
my year started with LA, the best month of my year, and of my life. it was the best not only because the place is so, but because of the ppl i met.
back to reality, from january to december it was a fight in school… but in august i decided that i wouldnt live anymore...
x: tell me 7 things that define you
me: happiness, vanity, freedom, lovely, sincerity, unusual, the power of eye contact
x: you homo
me: you r wright ... but now there are 8 things :(, YOU DUMBASS
FACT
i can express myself a LOT better in english, not only writing , but talking and thinking. what the fuck ?
FICTION
pedro lindenberg not thinking a lot and being able to live his life in a better way
quiet, to be or not be
when i was little i was quiet.. i grew up, and started to talk nonstopping with everybody.. until now.
for the first time, i feel so good, so relaxed, and so free with this person, that somehow i dont feel the need to talk… ok, i dont like to be with someone that is absolutely mute, that means i wouldnt like to be with myself.
i’ll admit i’m so wrapped up with this p that i...
brazil makes me sad →
half o the world tell me they love christmas, the other half, say they hate it. idk, i like christmas because its the only opportunity that i get to see ppl i (most of them) like, and get to talk to them, update them about me and see funny things (like my drunk grandma)… but at the same time i feel like each year xmas is less than i expect .. maybe because im getting older and i dont any...
