but when i tell u this i feel like i’m going to disapoint you in a way that i’v never done before. and one of the things that for a long lead my life was if i was or wasnt disapointing you in all the situations. if i had a problem, i wasnt sad because i was going through it, but because you werent a hundred percent proud of your son.
now, i do feel like i’m disapointing you, and a huge and maybe forever disapointment.. the things is, i cant stand anymore lying to myself only because i want you happy. love is love, but love isnt good if love makes you sacrifice your own happines in benefit of another person WICH you dont own anything.. WICH you didnt decide to love or choose in the middle of a crowd.
if you wont be happy with it, wich i believe you wont, just put up with it. this isnt a condition, as it isnt temporary.. this isnt a disease, as i was born with it… this isnt abnormal, this is just the way you think it its. i’m your son, and this is the only unchangeble thing.
i put up with the things you guys said all these years, and i know how you are going to look to me. i just hope the person i’m will be more important than this sh*t.
love you mom
